It feels as though it’s been a busy week with everything going on at work. It’s nothing too major but my boss isn’t making working from home any easier. Getting everyone to stop for updates every 5 minutes for updates really doesn’t help anything get done. But never mind. The positive thing about working from home is that as soon as the day is done, I’m done. No more commuting. I know that my journey home isn’t exactly long but it’s a lot longer than simply walking upstairs. It does make it a whole lot easier to signoff and destress at the end of the day.
Just a quick one this week. I’ve got a busy few days ahead. I’ve got a big work-related project on and it’s taking my time away from me. Which is why I’ve decided to take a week off blogging. I just need a break. But, don’t fear, there’s a big chance that I’m going to be furloughed as of next week. That means I’ll have more time to write nonsense for you to read. I might even get a few more things read. Won’t that be a novel experience. It’s not set in stone though. I find out on Tuesday. Still, I thought they were going to sack me so being furloughed is a welcome shock. I mean they might still fire me but at least not in the middle of a pandemic when I can’t leave the house to find a new job.
It’s been a tough week for me this week. While the rest of England seems to be getting more relaxed about lockdown, the high risk people out there are facing an even longer wait for freedom. I’ve finally been added to whatever database I needed to be on and got a message advising me to stay in until June 30th. That’s at least 37 more days being shut up and that’s provided it doesn’t get stretched out again. I miss being able to do things for myself and being able to go places. I know everyone is still limited but to not be able to go anywhere is a lot. I hear people moaning about wanting to go on holiday and I just can’t believe it. There are plenty of people out there in worse situations than me as well. People on their own, in a tiny flat, with no garden or anything. People who don’t have family to help them. We’re all struggling with our mental health right now and this was definitely one of my darker weeks. I just want to see my family in person and not via video chat. Normally that wouldn’t be too much to ask.
The eagle-eyed amongst you will have noticed that I didn’t do an awful lot of posting last week. It was partly because I had a lot of work to finish and partly because I needed a bit of a break. I hadn’t officially watched anything for my TBT post and I couldn’t think of a Friday Favourites, so I figured I’d just not post anything. And I think it was a good idea. I feel refreshed and ready to face the week ahead. I’ve also got a few positive things to look forward to this week, which is definitely a good thing. We’re all feeling a bit trapped and shitty at the moment. Sometimes we just need to take a break and take the pressure off. This is an insane situation and normality no longer feels normal. So, why should we force it? Besides, it’s not as if anyone was eagerly waiting my Thursday and Friday posts.
Bank holiday weekends always mess with my head but lockdown is making them even more complicated. I’ve not known which day it was at any point in the last few days. Friday was Saturday. Saturday was Sunday. This morning? Who knows. On the plus side. I’m two books ahead of schedule. Normally, at this point, I’d be rushing to finish something for tomorrow’s review and panicking about Wednesday’s. Not this week baby. I finished them both by Friday. Of course, that means I’ve barely read anything this weekend but that’s okay. I’ve got my book club book to get through so that should spur me on a bit.
What a week it’s been. I’ve got a Tumblr now. I’m not entirely sure why because I don’t honestly see the point. It just seems to be a place where you mostly share other people’s stuff or like a slightly longer Twitter. But I wanted to read something and it forced me to sign up. So, I went with it. I’m definitely not doing it right because I’m just linking it to my blog and my Instagram. It probably won’t last long. Or, by this time next week, I might have mastered it. Doubtful but there’s a slim chance I guess.
I feel like I’ve had quite an unproductive week all in all. Not during working hours, obviously, as I’m still working from home. But in relation to everything else. I just can’t get into the habit of reading. It doesn’t help that I’ve got a new phone so have been messing around with new apps and stuff. I just can’t get a routine in place. I miss outside and I miss my lunchtime walks during the week. I know I’m high risk but sometimes I’d love to just throw caution to the wind and go to the shops. I’m normally a pretty independent person so being reliant on other people is tough. It’s starting to wear a bit thin.
Yesterday marked one month of me being in self-isolation. In that time, I’ve only been outside a handful of times. Okay, outside of the garden. I’ve been on two walks and been to get my blood tested twice. In that time, I’ve had a few minor breakdowns and tantrums but I’ve mostly been coping. The worst part is not seeing other people. We all try and stay in touch but it’s not the same. And we’re the lucky ones. I can’t imagine how hard it has been for keyworkers to make the decision to leave their families until it’s all safe again. I know nobody was happy about lockdown lasting another 3 weeks but it feels like the main people complaining weren’t the people whose lives were being impacted the most. They’re just keeping their heads down and trying to get through this as best they can. We should all just consider how easy we have it compared to so many others.
Happy Easter! How are we all doing in isolation? If you’ve read my posts this week, you’ll know that work’s been stressing me out lately but I think I’m finally getting in the groove of isolation. Although, who knows what will happen the longer it goes on. I’m still not reading enough but I think I’ve been doing okay with blogging. I’ll get there with everything. I just need to stop watching so much. But it’s so convenient.