Yesterday was the first day of my holiday and I did absolutely nothing. I should probably have sat down to finish the book I’m reading but I was just so damn tired. I know I’ve been shut up inside since mid-March but it’s been exhausting. So, I just need to get some rest this week. After all, I’m pretty sure I have to go back to the office in August. I’m not entirely happy about it but I don’t think work will let me continue working home. Now that Boris Johnson has called time on shielding for high-risk people, I just can’t see them listening to my concerns. But, no matter what the PM says, the virus is still out there and I’m still at a huge risk if I get it. The virus can stay in the air for 3 hours and I work in a small office with only the windows as ventilation. This means if any of my colleagues are asymptomatic then I don’t stand a chance. Work can say they’ve taken precautions but they can’t guarantee that we won’t catch it. I’m sure that none of us wants to get it but having a suppressed immune system does make me extra wary. And it’s not as is I haven’t been doing my job at home for the past few months. But nevermind that now. Let’s talk about books.
I feel tired this week but I also feel good. I had some good news on Tuesday when I found out that I passed my apprenticeship. Not only that but I got a distinction! Part of me is sure this has something to do with the fact that I’m about twice as old as the typical apprentice and have made it through an Undergraduate and Postgraduate degree. However, I’m choosing not to focus on that and, instead, am focusing on my achievement. Something my boss isn’t doing. I’ve only heard from one person I work with since I got my grade, which really sums up their whole attitude towards the whole thing. I’m not letting it get me down. I feel great about what I achieved and how I achieved it. Now I just need to start thinking about the next chapter. It’s a shame that Covid-19 has made that more difficult than I’d have liked.
I’ll be honest, I’ve not done that well this week. It’s taking me ages to get through my current read but I’m hopeful that I’ll get ahead this week. Well, I can hope. I could really do with a break. I know that holidays are sort of off the agenda at the moment but I had a week booked this month. I might not be able to go anywhere but getting some time off work would be so good. The last few months have been tough for everyone and I just want to sleep and read. But I always want to do that. Whether there’s a pandemic or not.
It’s been another tough week but, hopefully, it’s going to get better from here on out. We’ve been super stretched but things are getting easier. And I might actually get a break this month. Pre-Covid, I was meant to be going away with my family this month. Obviously, the holiday is off but I might still be able to use my days. Although, work may very well turn around and say they can’t spare me. Hopefully not. The idea of having a week off is the only thing keeping me going right now. A week to read, relax, and catch up on my sleep. Yes, it’s not like I go anywhere or do anything but I’m a homebody anyway.
It’s been a long and stressful week this week. Friday was a busy day and I had to work extra to get it done. Of course, as I’m working from home, I’m not getting paid for it. Not that I mind but it doesn’t help that I get the feeling my boss doesn’t think I’m working hard enough. I was asked to come back to work this week because he’d apparently forgotten that I was high risk. I mean we had that exact conversation when lockdown started but why the hell would he think to remember a thing like that? As you can tell, I’ve been in a pretty dire mood this weekend. I could not be bothered with anything yesterday. I doubt I’ll be in a better mood today. Which means I’ll be starting off the week in a terrible mood as well. I just really need a holiday.
It feels as though it’s been a busy week with everything going on at work. It’s nothing too major but my boss isn’t making working from home any easier. Getting everyone to stop for updates every 5 minutes for updates really doesn’t help anything get done. But never mind. The positive thing about working from home is that as soon as the day is done, I’m done. No more commuting. I know that my journey home isn’t exactly long but it’s a lot longer than simply walking upstairs. It does make it a whole lot easier to signoff and destress at the end of the day.
Just a quick one this week. I’ve got a busy few days ahead. I’ve got a big work-related project on and it’s taking my time away from me. Which is why I’ve decided to take a week off blogging. I just need a break. But, don’t fear, there’s a big chance that I’m going to be furloughed as of next week. That means I’ll have more time to write nonsense for you to read. I might even get a few more things read. Won’t that be a novel experience. It’s not set in stone though. I find out on Tuesday. Still, I thought they were going to sack me so being furloughed is a welcome shock. I mean they might still fire me but at least not in the middle of a pandemic when I can’t leave the house to find a new job.
It’s been a tough week for me this week. While the rest of England seems to be getting more relaxed about lockdown, the high risk people out there are facing an even longer wait for freedom. I’ve finally been added to whatever database I needed to be on and got a message advising me to stay in until June 30th. That’s at least 37 more days being shut up and that’s provided it doesn’t get stretched out again. I miss being able to do things for myself and being able to go places. I know everyone is still limited but to not be able to go anywhere is a lot. I hear people moaning about wanting to go on holiday and I just can’t believe it. There are plenty of people out there in worse situations than me as well. People on their own, in a tiny flat, with no garden or anything. People who don’t have family to help them. We’re all struggling with our mental health right now and this was definitely one of my darker weeks. I just want to see my family in person and not via video chat. Normally that wouldn’t be too much to ask.
The eagle-eyed amongst you will have noticed that I didn’t do an awful lot of posting last week. It was partly because I had a lot of work to finish and partly because I needed a bit of a break. I hadn’t officially watched anything for my TBT post and I couldn’t think of a Friday Favourites, so I figured I’d just not post anything. And I think it was a good idea. I feel refreshed and ready to face the week ahead. I’ve also got a few positive things to look forward to this week, which is definitely a good thing. We’re all feeling a bit trapped and shitty at the moment. Sometimes we just need to take a break and take the pressure off. This is an insane situation and normality no longer feels normal. So, why should we force it? Besides, it’s not as if anyone was eagerly waiting my Thursday and Friday posts.